lalalalaa,,,,holidayy

hueheuhueueuheue.....ini blog uda lama ga gw urusin yah,..hahahaa....
akhrny,,,jmt n sbtu kmrn mnghabiskan wktu d jwc utk jd LO d'abc....capee lapaarr tp seruuu...gosiip menggila dehh soal aswin "big papa's",,trnyata yahh ga cuma gw lohh yg sebell,,ad monikk dr anak MK yg sebel banged sm dy,,wah pokokny dy "exist" abiss yehh smpe2 smua org tauu ke anehan na tuh manusia...tp yasuda lahh vicc,jgn nambah2 in dosa dehh...haha...jgn2 sy sneng lagee d gosipin????iuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........

yahh,,yahh biar kata ud gondok banged tp yauda lahh yaa......tp hari2 kmrn seruu2 ajaa sihhh...hahaa....nmbah pengalaman.....haha....mn si karr niih pas hr2 d' abc nambah2 in gosipp,,masa gw d gosipin sm anak SMAK 3,,cm gara2 dy liat gw ngobrol sm tuh anakk...hahaha....kocakk dahh tuhh...mn pas hr jumat gw dadakan jd MC lagii bareng partner MC gw wktu acra xmas,,,agak2 heran gw sm partner gw,,,,,gokill sihh...tp gw mpe bengong ye pas dy blg ttg band omeletee.:"omelette is delicious"....bengong gilaaakkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!...hahahaahhaa......................

tapii yahh,,,ada suatu hal yg bkin gw agak2 gmn....mse brlanjut nih yg soal blog gw sebelom nyaa....tau ga sihh,,,,gw yahh blakangan ini agak2 gmn gtu sbnrny....dilemma gtu dehh between feeling n friendship,,.....crita na gni2,,,co yg dlu pnah ngedeketin gw,,,ga tau knapa yah,,blakangan ini dy jd sering nyapa tmen gw d msn, n gw jd mrasa klo dy ad tnda2 nge dktin tmen gw itu....mn lg d FB dy cm nge tag tmen gw itu d notes na...tmbah curiga dehh gw............tp knapa gw jd mkir aneh2 gtu yaa???gw ga tau ap kah gw suka sm co ini.......ga tau ato ga mau mengakui????kyna dua2 na bole tuh...hauhauhuahau......smpe yah terkadang gw smpet agak2 gmn sm tmen gw ini,,,bs d blg jealous n ga seneng jd brujung sensi.....kdg gw berpikir,,,koq gw tega yah bgituu???tp gmn dongg???ni kn bkn gw yg mauu,,,hati gw mrasa ny gitu.....jadii pd intinyaa,,,cm gara2 seorg co jd gw sebel sm tmen gw sndiri????!!!!kokk ga bangedd sihh???????tp gmanaa donggg?????dy kan ga sala,,org co ini yg dketin dy,,tp posisi na kan dy tmen gw sndiri,,klo dy ngedeketin ce selaen tmen gw sih gw bodo amad dehh,,scra ga langsung dy bs memecah belahh gw sm tmen gw ini....dy tu egois apa gmn yah?ap dy ga prna mkir klo dlu dy prnah dktin gw,,,trus skrg dy mncoba dketin tmen gw sndiri gtuu????kokk dy ga mkir keadaan yaahh?????ap dy ga prnah brpkir klo dgn dy bgitu bs mnimbulkan gw brpikiran klo tmen gw ini "tmen makan tmen"..ihhh kokk gw jadii sadis gtu sih ngasi sbutan nyaa????wahh2,,,mkin kacoo aje dehh gw.....nambah2in dosa aja nii gw...susa banged yah pd inti ny utk mnghapus dr pkiran gw klo dy ngedektin tmen gw sndiri n alhasil gw kdg2 bs sensi sndiri m tmen gw....huhuhuhu.......kdg gw prcaya kok klo temen gw ini ga mungkin suka m dy scara dy itu orgny ga gampang suka sm co n jg dy psti ngerti laah ya klo co ini dlu kan prnah dketin gw ,,jd tmen gw ini mstiny mnghrgai gw dong yah scra gw dlu prnah dket sm ini co....
huahuaa....so many confusion .......always wondering..why...why..why...why....
what should i do???????????????????????????????????????????????

I think i have to move on,,,it's no good for me to stay in this condition,,it's getting worse anyway....
i truely in need of someone who can understand me...................tapiii,,,,org sperti itu susa banged utk d tmukan yahh....huahua.....................